Well Life is frustating if U don't get what you want!!

Life seems so easy on one way but on the other life is so difficult when it coms to be practical if u drive it only by yourself. I am a normal person and am already 21 I want to earn money and be on my own but dont know why I lack confidence or what I cant't understand why I am not going after  what I want. I want to earn money any how and give continuity to my studies too I want a bike but I don't have a license so I am not willing to ride the bike also in terms of law.

There are restrictions for everything you do. Life seems normal but it isn't so you must be careful.
I always tought that somebody would pick me up and give me training and I could be like them but in this shit world nobody cares they only care is about money how do you earn money. Everything people see now is a business.  People are often selfish they understand the humans but they have leass humanity and more desire for money. They only do or die for their blood, their family and their relatives for others they treat them as other creature so peoples be aware it only frustrates you if you remember all of this. For everything time will come you just need to be patient.

I have a desire to change the way that people think in our society but I don't know if this happens because I am confused whether to carry on my career or my interest. If i gave my career I don't know what will I end it upon so its like am confused with my own life. Just I am frustrated sometimes what will I do ?
 How will I do ?
 How will I succeed ? 
Don't know what happens ?
Life hangs upon u as u hang upon for life cause you can't decide what to do next??

Harvesting Paddy In the field

Well it was a month f harvesting where farmers wait for this day they thik that this days is the best day as the hindus regard paddy as an incarnation of goddess Laxmi.The paddy is the most awaited crops because they process it to make fine grains of rice .

Here I was for the first time in my own field where I had harvested the plants withh paddy. We first cut all the plants put the paddy in places making it a big collection so that it could dry in the sun for some time. While harvesting we may have difficulties there are so many snakes in the field so u have to be very careful about that and the places are muddy so you better watch for DHAP where half your body  goes into it. The Americans called it the swamp. The swamps are very deadly sometimes they may even swallow an whole ox or human being.

After harvesting the crops its time you seperate the paddy and the plants for that you can do it either with a machine or human power we call it DHAN CHUTNEY . The number of men depend on how much you own the land the people with more land basically  use more men because they alone cant handle every thing such as harvesting seperating and husking and packing in the sack.

If we seperate the plant and pddy by machine it is very easy but if manual work is done OMG if its your first time your body aches. You feel very exhausted so was I. I felt like oh hell ! when will all this finish up. I was doing my work very slow but the guy beside me he wass experienced and while I I finish up 2 mutha ( bundles of plants to make a big pack) he would have comleted four muthas. He was younger than me but he was stronger than me he would do it non stop but I would do as if I was already veery exhausted but I was pretty much excited because It was my first time doing this type of work in my own field.  I had my family and a boy who had helped us . We must give him money after he had finished the work the money rate is usually Rupees 1000 for boys and 600 for womens or girls.

After finishing up with seperation it was the time of cleaning the paddies by husking I didn't know how to do this work so I completely left the work. After husking w we collect those seeds in the sack . The next day we put in the sun for more drying so that it becomes good for making rice.The more older the ric the more tastier the food and more it rises up in its quality all you have to do is protect it from insects and wild animals and rats too .

Starting of a new Sesion in a college

Starting college in a new session is the most exciting day because in a new session you get to know your new teacers after a long time you can be together with friends. In the new session  we can know the new syllabus we can know the teachers opinion about the subject and a brief introduction about the subject and it helps you to understand about the course.

Sessions may start in as a new semester as well. After you join a college degree you may face many new sessions as the semesters are short  and you may have the tension of your course, notes, books, then you begin to search all the possible solutions.

Don't Become a Fool Just so as just others say so;

I don't know why many people believe each other. May be its a matter of trust but how do people realize that they are not being cheated. It's hard to believe people just by seeing their previous actions. some people believe another people because they might do some good to them while others believe by seeing their actions unknowingly. Actually this whole thing is a mess. Nobody knows whats in the other peoples mind. Mind reading people however know some secrets of the people just by seeiing their looks gestures and expressions they make while talking, eating, and the way they move. This makes the way of accepting people hard, hard to believe nobody knows nobody, actually every body knows everybody is selfish. Every body does something for a purpose. Their is no life without a purpose so selfishness must exist.

 I feel that every people try to fool you one way or the other. Every day is like a April fools day people think that they are always superior than you in one way or the other. Be careful of what you say and what you do with your actions.

Spending Day Without College Is Difficult for me

I always thought that college and school were not fun fut actually college and school days are the most wonderful days ever spent because they make you realize that your days were not worth . I don't know what would happen if we had no college and no school what would our civilization become what would happen to our future generation. They would not become moral I think but it's a thought of your own. There are so many questions that keeps me awake in this life and sometime I think what would be the day when we were only the one to destroy ourselves. Our techers teach us so many thing in school we get new friends we understand and help each other and in time we go against each other.

We learn this from our school days. I never hated to go to school but I disliked college because it was boring the teachers would care less for us  however we had  lots of chit chats in the school when the teacher was not around. We went to film halls, bunked the college and overall we would not care for what was happening around us. Life was good but when the holidays came I sat in my home doing nothing all day I was idle wondering what to do next forgot everythng that I dreamt for. I always wanted somebody to ispire me motivate me somebody beside me would help m guide me but all this thought was in vain It was like you never have too wish for such goodness. Sitting in the home ade me realize that you are all alone in this world. Nobody cares unless you succeed and diffrent thoughts wandered around the head like river they would come once and actually never happened anything in real.

My Visit To Dang ; The Day Before And The Incidents

It was 3rd august 2016 when I went for a visit with my best friend. Actually we had planned to got to Dang city a long time ago but when I asked my parents they had refused because the country had faced a lot of floods and landslides but the city where I was going had no such incident so my friend convinced my parents to go to Dang. It was the vacation of ending of the  5th semester. It was a 14 day holiday why would I spend 14 days spending in home so I decide to go to Dang.

The ticket to Dang was at 5:30 so I left the home at 5 before that my mom had done all the packing for me and I had wishes for a wonderful and safe journey. My friend took some time to come to the bus park where different buses leave for different cities. We got on the bus when he arrived I recharged my phone because I knew I had to call my parents during the travel. It was dark and the bus had music playing on it was cultural but I knew it would be boring so played my own music on my mobile and listened it. On the road we had eaten our foods that we had taken with us we had great fun. It was a night bus so it was dark time was to sleep. The  bus was normal bus so we had a little difficulties in coming from that bus as we could not sleep comfortably. It was the worst feeling of the normal bus for me. I would never go on the normal bus again in my normal life again to take a long journey.

The bus stopped at Malekhu where I had my dinner at 10 'o' clock. The was not so tasty however I ate it just to fill my hunger. I ordered a half plate fish meat because Malekhu was famous for fishes. Then we had a nap but I could not sleep as i was afraid whether something bad could happen. Finally, after a long sleep we had reached Dang at 6 'o' clock in the morning and my friend had called his daughter in law to pick up for him. This is the place where we stopped at dang.
 

Watching A Movie Series; DA.VInci Demons; Review of DA.Vinci Demons

There are many movie series some of them are Game of Thrones, Friends, DA.Vincis Demons. Series take long time to complete. A series may have many episodes. Series are especially counted as episodes an episode contains series. I didn't wanted to watch series series because if u have all the series in your computer You would lie to watch all the series so you would like to take a leave a leave if you are addicted to it.

Watching a series continuously may affect your eyes and your overall health because you don't like to eat neither you would like to sleep  in time. I knew because I had experience in watching a series named DA.Vincis Demons. 

This  series was about a book of leaves and how peace could be restored to create a peace in the world. I had a lot of expectations with this. Overall I liked this film but I think there was something missing. From first to last they mention about book of leaves they search for book of leaves eventually at last the book of leaves becomes a page the story concludes a page from which they save the part of the world Italy.

Da.Vincis is an artist here who solves different mystery to enlighten the world. He uses his knowledge to build different machines and solve the mystery and he is the main character who saves the world and searches for the book of leaves. The language of book of leaves could be solved by only two persons that was the main character himself and his sister. They meet at last to decipher the secrets of Book of leaves to change the world.  The main character in this series were as follows

• Tom Riley as Leonardo da Vinci. (seasons 1–3)
• Laura Haddock as Lucrezia Donati. (seasons 1–3)
• Blake Ritson as Count Girolamo Riario. (seasons 1–3)
• Elliot Cowan as Lorenzo de' Medici. (seasons 1–3)
• Lara Pulver as Clarice Orsini. (seasons 1–3)
• James Faulkner as Pope Sixtus IV – Francesco & Alessandro della Rovere. (recurring: season 1; main: seasons 2–3)
• Gregg Chillin as Zoroaster da Peretola. (recurring: seasons 1–2; main: season 3
•  

 There are actually 8 episode in season 1. 10 in both seasons 2and 3 . Altogether 28 series which I completed in 3 days. This movie was however a source of inspiration foe me to focus on what you do to make things happen. Your friends help you no matter whatever you  do wherever you go. Tom Riley however cannot understand his love  with Lucrezia Its a wonderful film I like it because it was my first film to watch as of series. During the three days I left many things just as to watch the film because watching the film episode makes you feel curious what happens on the next series.

What I did to earn money from online when I was above 18

I always thought to make money online at no cost without investing anywhere just doing some easy stuffs but no my dreams and imagination was worth to achieve it. There was no power in my dream when I realized that making money was hard.

Asking money every time from your parents when you are at the age of being independent makes you feel a little shy and it doesn't suit your personality so was the case with me. I didn't want to ask money from my parents so I every time thought of making money, how would I make money without letting them know.  I was always thinking of a job but they would not let me do it unless I finish my studies that is my higher studies.

For the first time when I wanted to earn money I saw a newspaper that I could make money from my home and when I went there to know about the fact, I came to realize about ad-sense the only desire of mine. There were other options t earn money such as computer operators, typists, and others too but I don't remember. I liked ad-sense from beginning my friends and me had gone there to take the job but the fact was we had to invest there some money. My friend had invested  Rupees 3500 /- and I should invest Rupees 15000/- I told them I would think about it.

Finally, I made a decision to pay them and they taught me to write blogs how to make blog posts even though I was IT student I had no idea about writing blogs, they even told how come I didn't know about such thing, I was ashamed for not knowing of such things even though I didn't about such things.

But the price paid after using google ad-sense for about three months I finally collected my invested amount.
Apart from google ad-sense I also used different methods like using clix sense bux-change. I also tried to get money from Cashback fortune but these were pretty slow method of income as compared to google ad-sense

The Fear For Last Exam; My Imagination

The last day of my exam seems very frightening as I had a fear that whether I would pass in the exam or not. TU (Tribhuwan University). I was very much frightened as i have studied this subject for five days actually the holiday was for 6 days but the two days I watched the movies because I didnt want to take a stress and I thought that even if i would fail I would pass in the next year. The subject was hard to prepare for it was called cryptography. Actually the subject was very interesting and it was about security the teacher that taught this subject only used to focus the first benches.

There was a a long holiday so I was having a bad feeling about this subject I prepared well but the bad luck was I would forget it really fast what I was learning I didn't know why that would happen if I was ready  for it. Every time I was learning I had this feeling that something dangerous would happen in the exam and i was sure of it because I knew that was our batch was the unluckiest batch and if I was to do well then I would prepare such that I would not forget. The only problem was even though I would like to read my mind was not concerned about the study I would rather think of other things such as why is this kind of study in Nepal. I hated the system of study in Nepal especially the course I was reading. My course name was BSC CSIT (Bachelor In Science Of Computer Science and Information And Technology). I would sometimes think of a love in my life sometimes I would think of becoming someone else sometimes I would like to earn money rather than spending time in studies. I don't know what I was doing .This subject interested me once now it seems as if I am fed of this subject. Every time I would think of the subject exam my heart would pound like a drum that was beaten hard by Drum sticks. I wondered what was my exam going to be like.

When the time came for my last exam my fears rose above the normal level my heart began to beat faster the time cam when I receive the question papers.

 I got a blank statement on my mind when I looked at the question papers what was there and I should write. Slowly I began to attempt the question and wrote the answers whatever I knew. The mistake I did was leaving four questions. I dont know their answers so left them completely. I became very sad as I had no hope of passing the exam because when i counted the marks I got 23 but the pass marks was 24 later when I checked the answers it was wrong answer that I had written. Whatever, I was determined that I will pass the exam next year.

Thanks To The Policeman for Saving me from being Robbed; A penny matters.

It was Friday and it was a rainy day. Almost all day I had been sleeping and suddenly I remembered that I should my exam so I began to rush to my room. I was on my maternal uncles home i,e my mothers home . I had a cup of tee than I dressed and went down to wait for the bus.

It was  Prithvi highway and there were lots of Trishuli Buses. I waited for the bus a micro came the micro never  picked us up because there are local buses for the local people. There came a Trishuli bus it did not stopped but splashed mud on my jeans I got fired at that moment. The next bus stopped I was so happy. I went to the last seat while others were standing.

I was taking full enjoyment of the music when the conductor asked me bus fair I gave him the money and my ID card for which I would get a card discount of 45 %.  He didn't returned my money thinking that he will give me later I stayed silent. Later when the stop arrived I asked for the money but he refused me to give my money. Then i said to him that he would fall under thug (i,e a kind of thief ) then he gave me five rupees but it was not enough he should have given me 5 rupees according to the local bus but next 2 rupees if had given me would make a 45 % of the total bus fair. So i didn't argued with him. I took his photo and the photo of the conductor.

I went to the police and told what had happened . He stopped the bus and and told that he would go to the jail. Then the conductor told that the bus fair was 20 and he had given me five rupees back but he was not aware the bus fair is 45% so he told lets ask to the local bus then I refused the police men supported me then I told the local bus would take rupees 10 the conductor told me to gut in the bus I refused and the policemen called the conductor down. He came down and asked why had you robbed a student, he told he had to take that amount but others also supported me and said that it was 45% in that sense he had to give me 2 or 3 rupees back but he didn't gave up to argue and the driver told me to give 50 rupees back I denied I only wanted my right money so he gave me my 5 rupee.

The driver  above the bus and told that he would break my nose I didn't speak a word the policeman called the driver and why would he say that and  they discussed there the police men told me that I should not have made it a issue so they told me go and I headed towards my room.

Watching New Films

Well watching new films comes to excitement a knowldge of what will happen in the film, will it be according to whatr  you expected. I always expect much in a fim so when it comes to watching films
I am begginning to expect less so It becomes good when I finish watching it . Hollywood movies are mre fictional and they use a lot of animations combitions and this cause the film to be good so this cause them to gave a better ratings but in Bollywood movies a little less than hollywood movies they too are worth watchin they have really nice stories and its good to spend your leisure time watchng them.
 On the other hand Hollywood movies are like drama and some movies are improving day by day. This movies are drama , a drama in the school even though Nepalese watch it to promote their film standards. The Nepali films have the strength to use emotions in a really easy way. They are so simple you wont realize unless you watch it so better watch one to know the difference. These movies though inspire you a lot but its like O GOD what a story it was .

I watche my first movie with my Dad when i was at the age of 7 or 8 . I exactly don't remember.
i knew it was a Nepali film but it was the best movie ever named Ajambari Maya . This movie if played now would be a hit I think of it sometimes. The next movie was with my mom  I don't remember the title but it was  good and i liked it later when i was departed form my home I didn't realize that i was watching Hindi movies with the uncle I had stayed with at my dads office . I used to watch movie a lot hiding from my father because if he saw me watching the movie than he would scold me for watching and not studying. But now he doesn't as he knows that I wont watch the film unless I study .
Day by day i watch new films I learn many things from them some are inspirational and some are just waste of time . The moment when you are watching Films  makes you realize that you should do something for your career and when the films is over your reality is over.This is the fact I hope.

Well watching films in group is  the most exciting part you can make your friends the character and you can tease them but some friends become angry so better be careful with that you don't want to lose a friend for a film.Anyway  you must watch films for the refreshment It gives you strength to recover from what you have suffered. It revives you So peoples watch great films and tell me if u watch it.

Caught RED Handed In A Exam While I was Cheating

It was JULY 21  my exam of artificial intelligence. I entered my exam hall earlier that day as i was feeling a little frightened of the question structure of the TU. TU generally asked question of previous year and this time it to happened but the frequency of the repeated question was too low . I managed to came early so i waited for my friend outside the college at the footpath. When he arrived we shook hand and began to talk about the possibility of question. One of the question was the Bayesian network. The probable question came to when we arrived to the center the door was open and we went inside the college without a regular checkup so we sat inside the class the bell rang and the exam started.
When i looked at the question It was kind of like this

This was the question of TU gave us OF BSC CSIT of Nepal I just attempted 4 question and i think that i should give the Test again It was my bad luck that they got me while i was copying other friend but I would appreciate If they would have let me because only innocent peoples are caught if all were checked I would guarantee that all had cheated something. I hated that moment IT was disgusting I would never forget that. I got out of the class and waited if the guard would call me when no response I scolded him within me that he would always be caught if does something bad my mood was tempered that time so I just went outside the center and started to count the marks thinking whether I would become pass but no  I didn't no hope so i went away from that center and headed home on a Bhaktapur bus and stopped near Morgan college . later I watched The Batman vs The superman . I liked it then i chatted  with my friends to make my mood fresh. Then I wrote this blog the next day

How I gave my exam What was I thinking and what it became ????

Today was the day when i had my second exam . I had prepared so hard for the exams i had reviewed all the questions I thought that I would attempt all question very well . When I went to the center for the exam I saw that everyone were excited to see about what their expectation would be what they would write .I thought of writing only,the bell rang everyone onto the hall. I was so afraid that I went for the toilet to feel relax.
When i got the question paper I was so surprised to see the question OMG what the hell . What is this question . The class was silence nobody moved the guard checked the students calculator whether if they some cheat. He thought that he would find some cheat but unfortunately no. However one student calculator had something written in it but he told that it was not his work . The teacher believed the student and gave him the copy which he had taken from the student thinking that he had made the cheat.
I attempted my long question first and gradually went for the short question .It was already one hour and my question number 2 was not completed I got shocked so i wrote my answers faster than before.
I started serially until i found a hard question to write for the entities of hospitals and inventory systems I felt blank and thought if i had read it I would do more I would be pass I would not have to wait for the next year. though I attempted the question I am not pretty sure that if my answers are correct and I would pass with a great marks my friends however attempted all and i didn't believe every one of them because I only trusted a few.

After finishing my exam I searched for my  friend tried to call  him searched for him but he was outside and he called me while passing by I saw a beautiful girl she had a thigh cut hair she was thin but she was beautiful her eyes and her face was the sweetest of all I fell in love with her within a second but i had to go to my home so saw her last time I could not even ask her name .

I returned home home as if I was missing something because one I had not done my exam well and the other thing was that U could not ask the  girl her name at least we would have connected through Facebook. But anyway i dint feel alright at home I slept in my home for aout five min ate two pieces of apple and used to chat with friends on Facebook.

I chatted for a long time than I went to cook food as it was already 6:30 pm so I cooked the food and we ate it with curd and write a blog because I wanted to remember this day.

My New School on 2001

My new school name was Universal College Preparatory School. I studied on this school when i was 8 years old and I studied here till i was 18 so i have a long time in this school.

My school was situated at lajimpat near British Council and near to lainchaur. My school had two compound there . One for the students and the other for college students. Te college building were thought to have ghosts by the school students. I used to learn on the school biluding. I have a preety best friend there we met right  before a day ahead of my school we played that day and became friends my elders used to say that she was my girlfriend haha. Her name was kriti she was very pretty and we were very close.

My Old School And The Day Spent There

My personel life is not a disclosure or I am not a big person to disclose my secrets but i would like to share the world how was my school.

I studied in two schools during my life. One is Tarkeshwor Bidhya kunja Higher Secondary School and the other is Universal School preparatory School. I loved the days in that time.My school was very far from my home It was about half an hour from my home . My home lied in an hilly area at the top of the hill and my school was at the bottom. On the way there was small strems of river where we  used to find small oyesters. We used to put it back because we didnt know the value of those oyesters that time . Now there are know such rivers neither those beutiful oyesters . The school is very old nowdays it has been over years that I have visited there. My school was yellow in color and it had 4 storey. Every classroom consisted of 18 desk and benches. We were 36 in number and there used to be a lot of noise. I dont remember my friends a lot but only those that were close to me, and those who stayed near my house as my neighbours. My school conisted of a small toilet in each corner of the stairs and it was well maintained.

My school seemed to be organized though even at that times it was the yaer of 1997 when i went to my school .  The teachers there were strict becaue i remember that one  time when i didnt know a math table my teacher pretended to throw me out of the school. My school conducted parents day every year at the time of publishing results but the only thing I remembered of that event was the  juice called the sarbat. We used to lie for  eating that sarbat. My school was good though i studied there for only two years

While I was in Tarkeshwor i was in my childhood days so i don't remember much but the time I spent there was wsome I spent two years studying there. There was nursery and UKG ( Upper Kinder Garden). I knew the day when we were taught about stars and sun . I Knew that htey emitted light .

I remeber when we were in a line they used to make us play PT and punished those who didnt do it properly.They also used to punish those whose used to come late to the school . I remeber a friend named anish i dont know his complete name but he used to come to school even if the school was just two minutes far from his home and he used to get punishment for that  simple thing. The other friend who always used to  cry for coming school . Haha we used to laugh at him .